exams are over
&& im done w this for now

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me n bri went to christiana today to go dress shopping and it was SO much fun  hah my dress will be a surprise but i tried on about 50...i swear for every one dress brie tried on i tried on 3...but they were alll sooo cute...hah i finally narrowed it down to 2 but then i went to another store and bought that one instead and i LOVE it  very happy lol

but omgoodness it was a fun day...i ate sooo much ...lol and i luv the massage store and their loverly beds...they rock my sox lol

im still kinda bummed  but ill get over it...

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hm welll my day started out pretty ok..even tho i was driving around half the morning casue i forgot some of my stupid school stuff ...schools been pretyy good mostly and all idk...but then tonite i went to bris to see her new kitten which is soooo cute   and then we went to the football game and i saw like everyone...but alot of stuff went down and im jst upset and frustrated i guess...idk not something i wana go into on here

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only have two words for you: im done...after everything ive done for you; every chance that i gave you and yet you still break my heart..every single time. but its over now finally, i realize i dont deserve this and honestly you dont deserve me... yeah i still love you and i probably will for a long time, but i cant stay here anymore, it hurts way too much..

^^thats exactly how i feel rite now...i jst wish i could tell him how i feel...

i wanted a perfect ending..now ive learned the hard way that some poems dont rhyme and some stories dont have a clear beginning middle and end..life is about not knowing, having to change..taking the moment and making the best of it..  without knowing whats gonna happen next..

you have created my past and screwed up my present, but you have no control over my future

you cant jst sit back and see what happens..you gotta get out there an do it

when i never thought a single guy could get any better and my heart was torn...you came and swept me off my feet and made me fall so hard

she says she doesnt care anymore.. but the look in her eyes and the sound of her voice tell different story

hes the reason i fall asleep with a smile on my face

&& he doesnt even realize that the little things he does- break her heart

she finally told him how she felt..she downright spilled her heart out..and she prayed to herself that he would care..but he jst walked away as she silently stood there...

i wouldnt change the past for anything...i wouldnt change the way i felt, the things i did, and what i said.  i wouldnt change who i was and what you meant to me...the only thing i would change is how you felt back

all the best love stories have one thing in common...you have to go against all odds to get there

welll school started last week..... i really miss summer...we got second in august cup last weekend...and pittsgrove is this weekend...and we get mon and friday off   ..ahh ive been sick all week but i had to go to stupid school gr..lol i really wana start swimming soon casue i miss the pool but i hafta get my mri first ... oh well...

yayy my guidance lady finally leme switch my lit class

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anyone can give up..its the easiest thing in the world to do..but to hold it together when everyone else is expecting you to fall apart...thats t r u e strength

the best kind of kiss is the one you have to stop because you cant help but smile

no camera could ever capture the look in her eyes and the feeling in her heart when she looks at him

find a guy who doesnt care if you laugh loudly, chew with your mouth open, sing off key, cry at the movies or act like an insane person...and all it does is make him love you even more..

i swear..ur the best thing about me..not many boys can take my breath away..but you dont even have to try..

she says she doesnt care but the tone of her voice and the look in her eyes tells a different story..

its hard to wait around for something that might never happen but its even harder to give up on something when you know its everything you want..

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Girl: so how’s it going with that girl you were talking about?

Boy: i dunno……not good

Girl: oh..whats wrong?

Boy: she doesn’t like me.

Girl: omg what did she say?

Boy: she didn’t

Girl: then how do you know?

Boy: i just do

Girl: well that wont get you anywhere! you should like tell her

Boy: tell her what

Girl: that you like her. duh.

Boy: well what if she hates me

Girl: yeah right. nobody can hate you!

Boy: she does

Girl: no way.

Boy: way.

Girl: I bet you she does like you. talk to her.

Boy: nobody likes me

Girl: stop complaining, you know urr a hottie lol

Boy: not to her

Girl: well to me you are!

Boy: really?

Girl: of course! now talk to her.

Boy: ok. do you really think she likes me?

Girl: i know she does.

Boy: alrite. here it goes..

//BOY HAS LOGGED OFF INSTANT MESSENGER//

Girl: i guess he doesn’t love me..

//BOY HAS SIGNED ONTO INSTANT MESSENGER//

Boy: i forgot to tell you something

Girl: yeah?

Boy: your the best friend a guy could have

Girl: oh..yeah..thanks..

Boy: no problem..!

Girl: i..um…i g2g

Boy: wait theres something else

//Girl has signed off instant messenger//

Boy: i love you…

//Girl is unable to receive message "i love you…" sent by Boy//

^^thats kinda sad..

if you love someone tell them

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i cant believe summers almost over..  its been fun i want it to last foreverrr...letsss see...this weekend was fun...sat i went to maggies and we had a partyyy lol it was fun..then church and ihop...and i got new converses hehehe very happy  andd then i went to beccas which rocked heheheh...andd today i went to the dr for my physical and had to get shots n stuff but its cool...and soccer got cancelled so i went running...for like ever lol i actually wasnt out that long but i ran 3.5 miles..not that bad since im sooo out of shape ...i think im goin again tmrw... it was funny...2 more days before school  i cant believe it .. i dont want to lol ohh well ill see you all either on thurs or fri

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do you ever get the feeling where you dont want to do anything..and you dont want to smile and you dont want to fake to be happy..but at the same time you dont know exactly whats bothering you??

its just something that happens as you grow up..you realize its less important to have more friends and more important to have real ones..

for all the laughs and gifts you gave me..for all the tears and lies you told me...i want to thank you becasue you pretended to like me..i wanted to thank you becasue you made me stronger..

people dont listen..they just wait for their turn to talk.

you tried so hard to be someone you arent and ended up forgetting who you are

You're the last one I think about before I go to sleep
and the first one I think of when I wake up…
…maybe that means something

i hate updating this much but im boredd soo...not much has happened...i sorta finished unpacking then went to the orthopedic surgeon dr guy and got my shoulder checked out again and i hafta get an mri  but oh well i really dont care lol jst as long as they fix it cuz i cant really swim til they do...hmm well my life is real confusing rite now ...idk wat to do honestly lol...its crazy...oh well i hate complaining on here ... idk for some reason i jst wana start swimming again...once the season stops i finally want to swim...doesnt make sense but ill go soon mabee once kate goes back cuz we were sposed to go to the gym this week but shes off at lovely camp ... idk i feel lazy jst sitting around lol my bdays in a month and a half yayyy

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never give up on somebody that you cant go a day without thinking about cause soon enough they'll realize you were meant to be together

i wana be the girl you hit a home run for..you score a goal for...you write a song for...i wana be the girl who makes you smile...makes you laugh..makes your heart skip a beat...i just wana be that girl

im not sure how i feel anymore...ever feel like that?..all your feelings are jumbled up and your not sure what to do like a road with infinite possibilities..you can go straight, left, right, make your own path or turn back around...

there is always something that tells me to wait and not give up on you...im not giving up on you

never forget what ppl say when theyre mad cause thats when the truth comes out